John Denver

I’m listening to John Denver and for some reason whenever I play his music it strikes a deep chord in me. My favourites would have to be Rocky Mountain High. I like to turn it right up and just let the words wash over me. The other one is Take Me Home Country Roads, although I have been a city girl for well over 20 years. I would never want to live in the country again.

I tend to like the older music. At the moment I’m playing Elton John. But not his recent hits – I like all his old hits. Rocket Man, Candle in the Wind and Daniel. I also like Neil Diamond and I play his CD’s quite often. I saw him in concert years ago and wished I’d been closer to the stage. I also saw Tom Jones in concert and while I don’t really play his music much now, I do like it. All the old songs like green, green grass of home. I think I’m an old fashioned girl in my music tastes. I also have the Eagles and their hit Hotel California, which I love.

I find that I can spend a whole day in silence without thinking of putting on music but when I do I really enjoy it. I used to have the radio on all the time but I hate listening to the news report every hour. I think we need a break from the news, otherwise it can become overwhelming.

I wonder why some music strikes a chord more than others? I really didn’t think John Denver’s music would bring a tear to my eye but I’ve been known to cry with his music. Depending on my mood. Calypso is another song I like of John Denver’s. It’s a very uplifting song. It was a huge loss when John Denver died but he has left behind beautiful music.



Kazza

Sleep

Tired
Too much on my mind
For sleep
Too hot
Too cold
Throw the quilt off
Pull the quilt on
Up
Down
Toss and turn
Too much thinking
In between
Trying to sleep
Worry
Thoughts whirling
Morning
Sheets twisted
Tonight......
Fresh bed
Fresh sheets
Sleep
Blissful sleep
Please








Kaz

Strength

I can take on the world
I am strength, inner strength
And outer strength
I am nobody’s fool
Never again
I have grown
To be what I am today
I stand against the sky
With my head held high
I am strength
I am pride and understanding
I am a little girl beginning to fly
I am a young woman learning about life
I am an adult woman, learning about myself
I am me, a life ever revolving, always growing.

Kazza

Thanks Kahless, I love it.

Summer Holidays

Holidays
Long summer days of sun
Hot rays beating on the earth
Air-conditioning, sweaty people
Dogs with tongues hanging out
Sky full of blue, yellow sun
Night full of stars, millions of them
A certain smell, of sprinklers on grass
Ice cream, icy poles
Salads and barbeques at night
Beaches full of swimmers
Lazy summer days, reading in the shade
Late nights, too hot to sleep
Fans swishing around on the ceiling
Music carrying through the night
A long hot summer break
Stretching over hot summer months.









Kazza

Always

I’m on the sidelines
Invisible
On the peripheral of others lives
Never really involved
Never really seen
Just existing
A ghost
Floating on a breeze
A whisper in life
I’m alone
Essentially alone
I’m depression
Deep and dark and lonely
A valley that drops forever
A well that never knows an end
Always waiting
Always watching
For a vulnerable moment
To sneak in
To take over
To wrap around dark arms
That grip and squeeze and hurt
Tears in eyes that burn
A loss of hope for the future
Thoughts dark and destructive
Life lived through a façade
Of laughter, smiling, normalcy
But always alone
Always.

Kaz

I'd rather no comments on this one. Today is just how it is.

Rebel Child

Rebel child
Play
Laugh
Have fun
Let nobody hold you back
Listen inside
Not to what others say
But that little voice within
Rebel child
Joyous
Free
With a glint in her eye
Enjoy
Cut the tape that binds you
Even the one within your heart
Dance
Twirl
Just be
Rebel child
Be free








Kaz

Irritations

I have been so grumpy lately and I think it is because the university year is drawing to an end, with only one week to go. The weather has also been really humid and everything is an effort. Today the weather has broken and it is raining outside but it’s still not really cool. Everything has been irritating me, especially people who are condescending. I can’t stand that. The worst is when you say something and they come back with a trite comment. Yesterday I was saying how I am so sick of cleaning up chook poo from my decking, to me a real irritation at the moment. And someone came back with “well if that’s all you have to complain about…..” Red rag to a bull that one.

Everyone has their irritations and it is a put down to minimize what someone else might be feeling at the time. Okay, maybe I haven’t got as many worries as someone else but for me that is an irritation and just an acknowledgement would have been fine. I’m tired because it is the end of the school year and I still have three things to hand in within the next week. It is an effort to get them done because all I want to do is finish and I really can’t be bothered pushing myself to get those last things done.

I think changes this semester have meant an adjustment for me and the group I hang around with has gone from 6 to 3. I don’t think 3 is a good number for a group. The two women I hang around with have some things in common that I don’t have with them. They are both going through something that I’m not and it has bonded them. One of them housesat for the other. So sometimes I feel like the odd one out. I’m very conscious that sometimes they’ll be having a conversation and talking to each other, rather than including me. It really bothered me at the beginning of semester but now I watch when they do that and don’t let it bother me as much. But I do hate it and as semester is drawing to a close, it is starting to irritate me again. I think next year, things will change further, as we do our placements. It is also going to be a heavy year I think. So it will be interesting to see what happens.

So I am just going to knuckle down this weekend and get as much done as I can to hand in next week and take the pressure off. Just one week, then one weeks study and my exam and then I can forget about uni for a while. I can’t wait.

Kazza